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Hello! 

So it has been awhile since I've been active within the SFM-Ponies community in general. 

So as of last few months, I've been though many changes. I've been less invested on the SFM-Ponies community, I've been spending less time making content as in general as well. Reason being is that I've been focusing more on my future.

Self-Improvement

I've been watching many self-help content. I've been reading more articles online, I've started now reading books, and I'm changing myself as a person. I feel I've been on a huge self-improvement phase, that helped me so much.

As I mentioned before, I've distanced myself a bit from the brony community overall, I met new people on new communities (psychology) and It honestly has been really good for me. I have now a different mentality towards life in general, different attitude as well. I feel more confident on what I say and think, I feel more confident on how I look and I embrace now on what I am. I've lost some weight, and I know I'm going towards the right direction.

I've been developing my empathy and the ability to understand other's feelings with the intent to help them, so they can feel better about themselves and also improve. albeit when making decisions I'm more logic oriented.

I have now a huge interest on books and I've been fighting my giant challenge of being consistent on reading book and understanding them on a slowly but steadily manner. I have now much more interest on learning new things about the universe and how it works, and the desire to learn more and become a better person myself as well.

In conclusion, I've been more focusing on myself, and becoming a better person overall. 

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Creativity Situation

I've been here for 5 years, 9 months and 13 days, doing the very same thing. I've making SFM-Ponies oriented content. I've been making models and models for past 5 years, and I've grown pretty much tired of it. My creativity stimulation has been degraded, and It feel more of a chore rather than something enjoyable that I look forward to.

It's just tiresome doing the same thing, again and again.

I want to continue making content, but I'm afraid that I'll need to change what type of creativity I want to make, and I'm afraid that people won't enjoy that sudden change of content If it happens. I've given huge breaks since I've been full on making content, and It's just doesn't grow back.

Perhaps, I need to distance myself even further and move on from this place, maybe I need to create a new account and start from zero. 

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Frustration

It really pains me to be in this situation, specially after the fact that the community helped me by donating funds in order to have a computer so I could be here and writing this. It's really painful and It makes me sad that I'm not compensating for what It has been done. I feel like I have a huge responsibility and I'm not fulfilling it. It's almost like it was a another gofund.me scam. I'm eternally grateful for what everyone has done and I want to express my thankfulness It's just, I can't express it, at least the way I expected.

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Sacrifice

Opening donationsHey all. I've been trying to avoid asking for money for a while, but recent events have forced me to write this to ask for help.
Recently I've been worried about the future of my computer, especially with the hard drive; some of the previous hard drives I've had have bit the dust due to constant use, and the one currently in my computer is showing signs of declining performance (also due to how full it's getting). I've been backing up my data and SFM projects onto an external hard drive, but I don't know how long I'll have on this main hard drive before it goes too.
Yesterday my mouse wheel stopped working, which is a major inconvenience for my workflow, and that's when I decided I'd need to properly start saving up for upgrades to my computer.
Currently I have four things on my immediate wishlist:
- New mouse (Corsair M65 Pro, AU$99/US$73)
- CPU cooler (CoolerMaster Hyper 212X, AU$59/US$44)
- Hard drive (Seagate Barracuda Pro 6TB, AU$355/US$263)
- SATA cables (SAT


Donations updateHi all. I wanted to post an update on the donations I opened up last month; they still are open. So far AU$244 (US$175) has been raised from PayPal donations, and I want to thank those of you who have donated so far; it means a lot to me.
The good news is that I have also received some money outside of donations which has helped me; a few months back I did a gig in a pub and recently received the pay from it (AU$200/US$143), which has allowed me to purchase my main goal earlier than expected.

Now as I said above, the donations are still open to go towards the long term goal (mechanical keyboard and RAM upgrade), and the raffle I mentioned in the previous journal post. So far we're up to AU$244 (US$175) in total donations, and I'll announce the raffle draw once we hit AU$400 (US$287). More details on the raffle in the previous journal entry:

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